It's the fourth of October. My life has changed so much. I have grown and changed a lot myself. I lost a few people I started this journey on, and not by choice. It seemed like I'd never get over it, but in all honesty, it took me two weeks and then I scrapped my plate of all those attachments. They're not gonna come back anyway, why hold on? And if they do come back, well I'm not certain how it will unfold. I won't take bullshit anymore. I deserve better considering all of me I was dishing out and sacrificing. Oh well. I'm not angry anymore. Still hurt deep down, but I don't even think about it on a regular basis anymore, it's a part of my past that has lead me to where I am now. And yes I am grateful, the experience and knowledge I've gained in the past five months is something you can only get from living the way I was, and it wasn't always hugs and drugs. There was a lot of messed up shit I can't even begin to explain.
Anyway, that's just an update on that. There's so much going on in my life right now, its amazing how well I've adapted and I'm always keeping busy which is good. So when I find more time to write here trust that I will.
I'm still searching for something, this I am sure of.
. : One day you'll look back and see what you've given up. I hope it's not too late by then. : .
