Another Day...

This is my first entry. I don't know what to say really. I have had quite a time, going through great ups and major downs. I need to find a way to not let things get to me. Garrr... I feel hopeless at the moment, things around me seem to be going so well, but inside it's all tangled and knotted. I don't want attention. I need to release my bundle of confusion and frustration but I don't know how. I think I'm gonna explode. I need friends that have my back at all times, but I feel a lack of that right now. Oh man. There are so many thoughts racing through my mind. I feel very lost and alone. This is a spiderweb affect from a few little things. Get over it Nikki! Get real!
Phew!

I've been living in parks and other random places for the past 3 weeks with a group of 'gypsies' if you will lol. At first it was me and my best friend Nahum, then our friend Angeline. Little by little we collected together and have made a group of 7 with family members intertwined. Things are always interesting and sometimes confusing, but we're all here for each other. I am emotionally everywhere lately it seems. But I guess the drugs play a big part in that, and my depression. Going head first into all of this has been a lot, but it will be something to learn from for sure.

At the moment I am quite bothered. I was hoping that writing a little will be good for me. And the little I have written has helped a great deal. I need to heal some more by playing my guitar. It's been far too long since I've jammed on my own. I'll come back to write more when I feel more stable, actually no, that's not a promise, I write a lot especially when I'm unstable lol, well with that in mind, I shall return eventually.

. : wrap your mind around truths that are purely fact : .